Kvetch Haven
Before more people misunderstood "KVETCH" as a person name, perhaps I should explain the meaning a little.
Kvetch actaully meant to complain and whine. This blog named "Kvetch Haven" so that I can complain a little, whine a little about life. Of course, this blog will not be solely on constant whinning and complain.
Matured Overnight - Part IV
whispered @ Sunday, March 27, 2005 by stardusz
One day, as usual, both Blaze and Garnet met up before attending school. When they are about to reach school, Garnet suddenly to to Blaze and said, "So bored... Don't really feel like going to school today, why not we skip the lessons today?"
Blaze felt uneasy about skipping class. He reminded Garnet that she was a class representative and should not skip class. Garnet sighed and stared out of the window.
"Why not we go shopping after school? You want to buy some CD, right?" Blaze asked. Garnet nodded. "Since today class end early, you can have almost the whole day shopping from noon till nightfall," Blaze said, trying to cheer Garnet up. Garnet agreed and both went for their lessons.
Lesson ended slightly before noon, Garnet urged Blaze to hurry up as she don't want to miss the earliest possible bus to go to town. Seeing Garnet so happy that day had some how brighten Blaze as well. He decided to bring Garnet to somewhere that Garnet wanted to go for a long time.
"Garnet, let's go to somewhere you yearn to go for a long time," Blaze told Garnet. "Where? So many places I wanted to go," Garnet asked, but Blaze just signalled her to follow him. Garnet followed Blaze and boarded the bus.
"hm.. He's bringing me to the beach. Must be the beach..." Garnet thought to herself and smiled.
Soon, they reached the beach. Garnet asked Blaze why did he bring her there. Blaze blushed and said he thought she always wanted to go to the beach with her boyfriend.
"But, you are not my boyfriend," Garnet said, giggling.
Silence...
Blaze heart sank. He apologized to Garnet. Sensing that her remark hurt Blaze, Garnet tried to save the situation, at least not to make Blaze felt sad as she was just teasing him. "Actually, I feel happy that you brought me here today. Really am happy," Garnet said.
Blaze smiled and told Garnet not to comfort him. "I am a nobody to replace your ex boyfriend. Guess I am too naive to even think of replacing him,"
Silence again.
Garnet did not know how to explain to Blaze the worries and fear she had in her in accepting another guy as her boyfriend.
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Matured Overnight - Part III
whispered @ Saturday, March 26, 2005 by stardusz
Upon hearing this, Garnet looked at Blaze, stared at him for a while and told Blaze what happened. After listening to Garnet, Blaze asked her if he could visit her granny. Garnet nodded and smiled.
Later that eveing, Garnet brought Blaze to the hospital. Her family were all there already. They were rather surprised to see Blaze. Garnet introduced Blaze as her best friend in school. Garnet's granny smiled, but Garnet could see the disappointment in her; Ace failed to visit her.
Garnet's granny passed away peacefully after staying in the hospital for three weeks. A four day funeral wake was held for her granny. Garnet, still hoping that her granny could catch a glimpse of Ace, called Ace up again.
"Hello Ace," Garnet spoke eagerly when the the line was picked up. "Oh! Hi there Garnet! What's up?" Ace replied.
"My granny passed away yesterday. I really hope that you can come over and pay her your last respect... ... Please," Garnet pleaded.
Paused...
"Erm, sorry dear, I am really busy, please spare a thought for me, I have a duty to perform. Besides, a fortune teller once told my mum told me I should not attend any funerals as it this bring me bad luck... Hey, I got to go now. Tell you what, we'll chat to you another day, bye," and the line went dead, before Garnet could say anything.
Anguish hit Garnet once again. She was upset, very upset. The conversation between Ace had hurt her deep, it really broke her heart.
Garnet made a decision. She decided she would let Ace go. She felt that Ace was not the one for her afterall. The decision was made by her alone, as Ace, as usual was always busy.
Garnet tried to adjust her life back to normal. She gave her studies full concentration and think of nothing at all, no relationship, no nothing.
Meanwhile, Blaze would try to accompany Garnet whenever he was free. Blaze has gradually took a liking for Garnet, something that he tried hard to prevent. However, he can't. His life revolved around Garnet, he would go out with her, study with her, call her, eat lunch with her.
Garnet was not a fool either, she sensed Blaze's care and concern but she dared not accept too much from Blaze though she knew she too had took a liking for Blaze. She was hurt before, and the wound within her still bleed ocassionally...
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Matured Overnight - Part II
whispered @ Thursday, March 24, 2005 by stardusz
Garnet tried to chat with Blaze since there was nothing much to do during work. Through the conversation, Garnet knew Blaze, like her, enjoy reading spooky stuff, but Blaze did not stop just there. He and a few of his friends even go around the island to explore those so-called huanted houses or parks. She also knew that Blaze wanted to publish his own comic from the hunting of all those huanting sessions.
Blaze knew that Garnet had a boyfriend and he tried his best not to get too close to her for fear of liking her. But it seems like the more he tried to avoid the sooner things changed.
After the internship ended, both of them went back to school for the final year preparation. They were close, very close... so close that even their classmates suspected that they were couple. But of course they weren't, yet.
Then, one day, tragedy struck Garnet's family. Garnet's granny was diagnosed to have liver cancer and was in her terminal stage. Her family had heard about Ace but never had a chance to see Ace. Garnet knew that her granny wanted to see her boyfriend too so she called Ace up and hoped that he would meet her up to visit her granny who was lying on the hospital bed.
However, Ace reply sunken Garnet's heart. He said that he was not free and could not make it to the hospital to visit Garnet's granny. A mixed feeling came crushing onto Garnet. She felt alone, anguish, sad, bitter... She asked herself, "How can Ace do that to me? Am I asking too much for him to visit a dying person? I need someone dearly now and that someone is you!"
For the first time, Garnet felt that Ace was selfish and cared about his own personal stuff. She felt that she was nothing in Ace's heart, maybe just a tiny speck of dust.
Blaze noticed something amiss and asked Garnet what went wrong but Garnet kept quiet. This made Blaze, she was not her usual self. "Let me know, maybe I can help you out," Blaze said... ...
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Matured Overnight - Part I
whispered @ Tuesday, March 22, 2005 by stardusz
Can someone matured overnight? The answer is yes, of course she will still look the same physically, however his/her mindset has moved up (or in some case down) by at least a notch. Out of the blue, I got this story that I would like to share. Wee, not every story that begins like a fairy tale ends like one. The following story is not an exception either... ...
Garnet, a first year student doing engineering in a local tertiary school, was a sporty and cheerful little lady. Making friends was never a problem for her, perhaps this is due to her in-born character and the fact that she was an extrovert. Once she told her classmates that never would she date anyone in the same class. To her, seeing each other everyday would bound to have friction and the couple might squabble over unimportant stuff.
Not long after, Garnet befriended a guy, Ace, who was a year older then she was and within a week they became couple (ya, very fast, in fact too fast, I would say). Ace was fond of Garnet and so was she. They would message each other a few times a day just to let the other party knew they miss each other.
Ace was always busy, but he never told Garnet what was he busy with... just busy. Garnet, on the other hand was very patient and hoped that one day Ace would be free to spend some quality time with her. She seldom threw any any tantrums as she believed that that was not the way a girlfriend should behave. Quality time, that was all that Garnet wanted from Ace (hah! She sound silly, don't she?).
During the second year of her studies, Garnet had to do internship, a requirement by the school. Blaze, Garnet's classmate, was her partner during the internship. Blaze was gentle giant. Unless there was a need to speak to Garnet, else he would sit around quietly to do his work.
However, something happened during the second week of the internship... something that turned Garnet's life around...
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Self Annihilate? Dolt!
whispered @ Sunday, March 20, 2005 by stardusz
Life begins when a sperm enters the egg. From that very moment on, the female body starts to produce amniotic fluid to protect the fetus till it is born. This is how we are created. Not many of us are born healthy, those that are born with defects or a sick body or both are struggling so hard to survive. Yet, many of those who are given the opportunity to be borned healthily choose to end their life without giving much of a thought.
Why? Due to Stress?
Stress is something that we dealt with everyday. While most of the people are trying their very best to deal with it, some simply waved white flag to Life, this is quite a sorry sight. Whenever one felt that stressed, they should find someone to talk to. Though talking might not help solving the problems they encountered, it will help to de-stress a person. Ending your own life is definitely not the best solution.
Am I a frog living in a well and judge things from the little bit of sky I've seen?
Thoughts of suicide did flashed across my mind some time back. However, the thought of my parents and siblings made me abandon this thought many times. I am my parents' pride and joy, it took them quite some time to conceive me. After I was born, they shower me with love and care, they spent a lot of time and effort to nurture me. So, who am I to terminate my own life? I believed I would really wrenched their heart if I hurt or kill myself and that is the last thing I want to do to hurt them. Besides, I am the eldest among my siblings, being a leader, I should lead by example; no matter how tough life will be, I will and I must overcome it. To a certain extend, I do play a rather crucial role in their life and I cannot abandon this role.
Recently, I felt that suicidal acts are actually an act to let the public know how platroon a person is; someone who is so coward and has no guts to face the challenge in life, thinking that ending life itself solved all the exisiting problems. Most people who committed suicide actaully revealed the selfishness in them; by not considering how their love ones will suffer after they left the world.
Ever tried imagining what will happen to your family after you left this world for good? No? Good, please don't imagine, please don't let yourself know that you will cowardly pass your unsolved problems to your love ones.
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Noob First Blob in Blog
whispered @ Friday, March 18, 2005 by stardusz
For the 20 over years, recording of my own life journal has been done so with orders from school teachers. Writing then was like taking orders from the school teachers. I don't like to write much, as there seem to have nothing much to write about.
As a kid, with everyday life surrounded by toys, cartoons and playmates, who would think that writing is going to be fun?
As I was in my adolescence, I did keep a diary, a diary that later betrayed me later. My mum took a peek out of good will that turn into a shock of her life. Her teenage daughter was in love and enjoying her teenage life at the expense of her study. All hell broke loose! Viola! Out goes my friends and in comes extra tutorials and TYS.As compare to my cousins and siblings, rules set for me seems to be harsher and no sense of mercy. I turned rebellious, naturally, and stopped writing a diary. Diary betray me, I hate it then.
However, things took another turn after I completed my tertiary studies. The flame in me seems to simmer down, no longer that rebellious, I begin to understand bits of life and the chain of thoughts start moving.
I read, I listen, I observe, I ponder. While pondering over matters, I grew to understand and start to have my own set of thinking on the matters I ponder. However, these are just thoughts and never been writen out as fear of betrayal still has a grip on me.
Yet today, after a number of recent happenings (be it international issues like the Tsunami, or trival matters that happened to me), I decided that I should let my thoughts be seen and commented.
PS: Pardon my bad English as living in a country like mine, we need more then the enforced 10years of education to brush it up.
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