Before more people misunderstood "KVETCH" as a person name, perhaps I should explain the meaning a little.
Kvetch actaully meant to complain and whine. This blog named "Kvetch Haven" so that I can complain a little, whine a little about life. Of course, this blog will not be solely on constant whinning and complain.
Matured Overnight Part IX
whispered @ Saturday, April 30, 2005 by stardusz
The clock continue to run, life moved on, Garnet goes to work as usual but when night fall, she has problem sleeping. Garnet got hooked on to the internet. She would chat to her online friends almost every night or exchange e-mail with them. The one day, while she was checking her e-mails, she saw a familiar name - Blaze. ((Hmm, why would he suddenly send an e-mail? Trying to harm her further?)
Besides, the normal and formal greetings, Blaze said that he has returned recently and decided to write her an e-mail to explain. He had also indirectly blamed Garnet for not informing him that his beloved god-mother had passed away after he left for UK.
Garnet was puzzled. She did not know that his god-mother has passed away then as no one told her about it. She did not even get the chance to pay her her last respect.
Blaze wrote:
"Hi, Garnet, I hope you are doing fine. Ido not know why but I think I just got to sent you this e-mail to let you know the loneliness that I experienced in UK.
In the first week of my arrival, I really miss you a lot. I missed you so much that I thought that I would die. Then I told myself that I should not behave like this. I told myself that when I stepped out into the society to work, I might need to travel a lot and will need to leave you alone at home. I must not miss you this badly. I must learn.
Towards the end of the first week, while I was alone in a park, a lady walked up to me and introduced herself that she's my classmate and noticed I was always alone. so she decided to befriend. Please do not misunderstand her intention, Garnet, she is being kind to accompany me through this period.
I found that we think alike, our thoughts, our way looking at life is so similiar. I thought I found a good friend. ((Or is it a soulmate??)
We met often, in fact we did not plan the meet up. Fate seems to have made the path for us. When I was alone at the beach, she would suddenly appear, when I was at the canteen eating, she would be around as well. I think I have some feelings for her, because when she was not around I feel that I have to see her but when I was with her, I felt guilty. I felt that I did you wrong, but please do not think that we had sex or what-so-ever. We did not even have any physical contact at all. ((but didn't you betray her emotionally already?! What the... ...)
I have reached home 2 days ago. However, the first person I went to see is her. I know that should not be the case but I really feel like seeing her the moment I touched down.
I think we should split up for a period of time to let me settle my thoughts. I am sorry. I might have let you down.
Blaze."
This e-mail once again hurt Garnet. She thought to herself "Why did you tell me all these? Want to make me angry? What the hell does Blaze want me to do? Make a scene? What, why? I hate you!"
Garnet wrote an e-mail back to Blaze. She scolded him. She said that all she saw within the e-mail was betrayal, betrayal and more betrayal. As she was writing the e-mail, tears flowed out. It was unstoppable, for the first time, Garnet cried her heart out but as her tear flowed, a decision was made. She was not going to waste any more tears on a guy who hurt her, it was not worth at all. Blaze would be totally out of her life from then on. The decision hurt her, but she had to move on and stop lingering in the past
2 months past by in a swift. Garnet had slow got accustomed to her singlehood again. Then one day, she received an sms from Blaze asking for a meet up. Garnet thought for a while and agreed upon the request.
That evening, both Blaze and Garnet reached the meet up place at almost the same time. Garnet smiled when he saw Blaze. He smiled back but Garnet felt that tha's a very fake smile from Blaze. They went to the nearby foodcourt to have dinner together and while having dinner, they talked about their past, and update each other what they did recently.
"Garnet, is it possible for us to go back together?" Blaze suddenly popped out a question. Garnet looked at him, paused what she was doing and think for a while. Then she shake her head with a smile and replied "No"
"Why? Are you seeing someone already? I really think we should give each other a chance," Blaze said.
"Blaze," Garnet said "Move on, I have already moved on. And besides, I do not think patching up will do us any good. You have cracked the mirror. No matter how hard you tried to mend it, the crack will always be there. You can't erased the fact. Don't hurt me again, Blaze"
The dinner went on with silence. Blaze knew that it was impossible to make Garnet change her mind. He had hurt her, that was a fact.
After dinner, Blaze insisted on sending Garnet home as this was the least that he could do for her. Before Blaze left, Garnet stop him by holding his arm then she told him something
"Blaze, I really thought of patching up with you initially, but then later I thought to myself, if I really do so, you will never learn and thus in term of relationship, you will not grow up. Now that you found a new love, treat her better then how you treat me. Love her and care for her. Good night, Blaze."
This teared Blaze. Blaze regretted letting Garnet go. But he knew he had no right to ask Garnet to forgive him. He did her wrong. Blaze decided to heed Garnet's advice and treat the new girlfriend well.
~Story ends~
Garnet went on with her life as usual but weren't any updates on how Blaze was getting on with life
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