Before more people misunderstood "KVETCH" as a person name, perhaps I should explain the meaning a little. Kvetch actaully meant to complain and whine. This blog named "Kvetch Haven" so that I can complain a little, whine a little about life. Of course, this blog will not be solely on constant whinning and complain.
Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
whispered @ Wednesday, May 31, 2006 by stardusz Got to listen to this song by chance and looked into the lyrices. It's very meaningful and hope to share the lyrics in this blog.
I will not make the same mistakes that you did and I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you... I am afraid
I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh Everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you... I am afraid
I watched you die I heard you cry Every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry In the middle of the night For the same damn thing..
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid
Because of you....ahahahahhhhh... because of you...you..... mmmmmmmmmm........
whispered @ Saturday, May 27, 2006 by stardusz Fours years after her independency, unrest has engulfed East Timor once again. Ten of thousands of people have fled Dili, the capital of East Timor, following clashes that left 5 people dead when the police opened fire on a crowd that is rioting in the streets last month (28 Apr 2006).
Started as a peaceful rally in support of nearly 600 soldiers who were sacked due to desertion, it soon escalated into a riot. The soldiers deserted their barrack because they felt that their promotion are passed over due to their ethnicity.
Countries that have sent troops to assist East Timor Australia Canberra will shoulder the lion's share of the deployment, and was planning to send a battalion of up to 1,300 troops as well as helicopters and armored vehicles. Three warships already on standby in northern Australian waters will also be deployed. In another report, it is said that about 1,800 Australian soldiers, C130 Hercules and helicopters will be in East Timor by late today, the Defense Department said in an e-mailed statement.
Portugal Portugal is to send 120 military police troops to East Timor to help maintain order.
Malaysia Malaysia plans to send 500 military and police personnel to serve as peacekeepers. A preliminary team of 25 army troops was dispatched to Dili, the capital, on Thursday morning to survey the situation, Deputy Prime Minister Najib Razak said. He did not elaborate on when the others would follow, but said the eventual number of personnel might change depending on the circumstances.
New Zealand A 42-strong contingent of New Zealand soldiers left Christchurch on a month-long deployment to East Timor to join Australian forces trying to prevent civil war in the fledgling country. Prime Minister Helen Clark said that up to 120 New Zealand troops could be deployed to troubled East Timor in the next few days. Another report said that New Zealand is sending a 757 aircraft, a Hercules C130 plane and 150 soldiers.
News Related to East Timor Latest Unrest | Click Here | Daily News | Click Here | The Sydney Morning Herald | Click Here | Channel News Asia | Click Here | The Stuff **These links maybe be dead as time goes by
whispered @ Thursday, May 25, 2006 by stardusz **Tai Tai - applies to the wife of a wealthy man who does not need to work for money. A Tai tai is a privileged lady of means. To qualify as a Tai tai, one must have lots of leisure time, lots of money and lots of gossip to exchange. [Extracted from Wikipedia, click here for full meaning]
That is the meaning of "Tai tai"; a lifestyle that has never cross my path of thought... Well, maybe not exactly true, I have thought about being a "Tai tai" only when I got overloaded and stressed with my work. However, this is the "career path" that I will never choose to persue. To me, that would be the most boring career that exists on this Earth to choose, and if I partook in that life course it would make me feel that I am wasting my days minute by minute.
Dreams and goals are what that drive people to live their life to the fullest; these are the engines of life! I really pity girls or women who have have abandoned those aspirations and choose to sponge on their husbands after marriage.
Often goalless and dreamless people can be easily led astray. This outcome is not hard to dissuade, just a little imagination (not the rootless kind though) will do the trick.
Imagine this; you are lonely and bored at home with nothing much better to do. How would you kill the boredom?
Surf the internet to find chat mates or play online games to kill the boredom?
Meet some friends to gossip about anything under the sun?
Gamble; to bring thrill to the boring life?
Go on shopping spree; since my husband provides me with money?
Find a toy boy to entertain; since your husband is too busy to be with you in the day (this sound absurd but highly possible)?
Of course, there other activities that a "Tai tai" do when she is bored and lonely, but the above activities are the more common activities that I have heard of. Most of those that I have mentioned are activities that will lead to a broken marriage eventually, something that I do not want to ever, ever happen to my marriage in the future.
To tie things up, I will never want to give up the career and achievements that I have built up over the years for a "Tai tai" life. Getting bored and facing the walls in my house is the last thing I want to do. I want to earn my own money so that I can enjoy spending it at my own accord later. I want to live life to the fullest!
whispered @ Sunday, May 21, 2006 by stardusz Starred by Tom Hanks (as Robert Langdon), Audrey Tautou (as Sophie Neveu) and Ian McKellen (as Sir Leigh Teabing) in the adaption of the bestseller book written by Dan Brown; "The Da Vinci Code", is said to be narrated very closely.
The story began with the murder of Jacques Sauniere and clues are left by him that uncovered a religious mystery that could shake the foundation of Christianity. A secret society has vowed to protect this secret for the past two thousand years.
Personally, without having read the book beforehand, I felt that this movie was very nice and intriguing. It brings a lot of people to ponder about Dan Brown's concept of alternative thinking about Jesus Christ's mortal life and his living years on Earth.
What I felt (and I believe it was blogged some times in August 2005), remained the same as before.
Each and every human has an individual mind of their own. At least to a group of people that behaves and think along my point of view might most probably have this kind of opinion: since Jesus Christ is born to the world to salvage the dying huamn race, he should most probably had all the "assets" that a human possessed since birth. If he experienced pain and suffered for human kind, then most probably he should have emotions and desire like any other human. Only by knowing what is happiness and sadness to the human race would he be able to fulfill his duty to God so that he could report truthfully and factually to Him. If he was an ultra being that did not have desire and emotions, doesn't that make him far and away from human reach?
Back to the reality, when this book was first published, it caused a commotion among the Christians, many have an anti-feeling for this book. Others begin to wonder if there is truth lying between the lines, and some are pretty convinced by what was written. When the director, Ron Howard, decides to put this bestseller onto the silverscreen, he received a lot of reactions from the public (especially the Christians), some protested strongly against it while others waited for the movie eagerly.
When the movie was about to be screened, Christians locally petitioned against the idea. I guessed thaey have not succeeded. (since I managed to catch the movie with my friend on Saturday)
Overall, I would say that this was a very interesting movie with a nice plot and personally, I think Christian should watch it with an open mind.
I would rate 4 stars out of 5 for this movie.
Here is the official movie site: | Click Here | The trailer (if you prefer to not to navigate away from here)
Last but not least, some quotes from the book that I find interesting. "Jesus as a married man makes infinitely more sense than our standard biblical view of Jesus as a bachelor…Because Jesus was a Jew…the social decorum during that time virtually forbid a Jewish man to be unmarried. According to Jewish custom, celibacy was condemned, and the obligation for a Jewish father was to find a suitable wife for his son. If Jesus were not married, at least one of the Bible's gospels would have mentioned it and offered some explanation for His unnatural state of bachelorhood." The Da Vinci Code
History is always written by the winners. When two cultures clash, the loser is obliterated, and the winner writes the history books-books which glorify their own cause and disparage the conquered foe. As Napoleon once said, 'What is history, but a fable agreed upon?' The Da Vinci Code
"Take a deep breathe, you'll smell love, love from friends who really care"
I think this is simple and direct to let my friends and love ones know how I appreciate their care for me.
Yes, I am truly grateful, because without them I will not be what I am today. Without them each passing day will most probably be a living hell for me.
whispered @ Tuesday, May 16, 2006 by stardusz They are my polytechnic friends. They have planned for us to enjoy ourselves before my birthday, when one of them cannot make it for the "full day event", they still make it a point to come out rather late that night and I know they are tired but they smiled and insisted that they want us to enjoy the night. We went to karaoke and sings our (or maybe just me) hearts out, after we failed to get tickets to watch "Mission Impossible III".
I felt so bad but they told me I should not as I should be happy and put all the sad things behind me. These girls really touched me. One of them still have to work the next day and I can see them yawning away. They got me a very cute sling bag from my favourite Japanese animation - Tonari No Totoro.
---Next--- She is my secondary friend, in fact I have lost touch with most of my secondary school friends and I happened to meet her by pure luck in a shopping center. We exchange numbers but we never called or message each other until we met again at another place. We exchange our MSN address and started chatting on the MSN often.
She has been there in my up and down moments. Always cheering me and "bashing" those people who have bully and hurt me. When I was sad, she will date me out to play pool, have dinner or go shopping to cheer my up.
It is a blessing that heaven let us meet up again and keep in contact until now. She talks a lot and talking to her brighten my days.
---Next---
He is someone whom I've never seen before, but we chatted through a forum and later in MSN as he sense that I am in some sort of trouble. It is quite true that I was in the lowest point of my life (or I think it was the lowest). A "friendship" was form with me seeking emotional refuge from him. Whenever I felt sad and low (again), he would be there to encourage me and pull me out from the sinking mud.
Though he told me he was not highly educated, but that does not really matter. Friendship are not judge by educational level. What he did reall touched me deep. Knowing that I was feeling sad, he suggested to give me a birthday treat within my birth month. I agreed to having a dinner with him as I can see his sincerity in cheering me up. We made a date and had a really nice dinner, after chatting for a while in the restaurant, he asked the waitress to bring in the birthday cake he brought and gave me a birthday present.
This really touched me a lot. He has went so far to cheer a "friend" whom he has never met before. I am really speechless, but I tell myself that he is someone who is genuine about establishing a friendship and I want to maintain and strengten this friendship.
My gift and cake:
--- Next ---
They are email pals whom I have made after I joined an online penpal site. They are very friendly and when I express my sadness over the mail, they helped me to analyse the situation and cheer me up. Talking to me really make my days easier to pass by. If I did not exchange mails with them I think my days will be tougher to pass by.
They listened to me and I believe that they endure all my nonsense when I was thinking rather illogically. Thanks to the constant exchanging of emails with them, else the healing process will be slow.
---End---
This is that friends are for. True friends will not always br by your side but when you are sad and needed help they will appear and give you a helping hand. I will learn from them and learn to be a true friend. True friends are the ones who speaks of the truth and we all know that in most cases, the truth hurts. Many things that they have told me hurts me, but I realize that it is the truth and though I know, I guess I was too blind to see it.
Once again, thank you my friends, kawan, tomodachi, 朋友, vriend, ami, 친구... I love you, all of you..
by stardusz Suffering from a failed relationship, is like having a bad fall on the running track. Though the ground designed for running is soft, you can still get an ugly wound from the fall. While the wound is still fresh, raw and hurting, you will try your very best to pick yourself up to start afresh.
It's not easy to pick myself up from this failed relationship especially when my raw wound refuse to heal in a faster pace. To make things worse, I get salt rubbed into the wound which make the healing process even slower.
Of course, I hope and believe that salt are sprinkled upon my wound unintentionally.
Though healing process is really slow, I will want to get it heal soon.
**A thousand apologies to a friend who has unintentionally rubbed salt into my wound. I believe I have said things that have hurt you unintentionally and you are my friend and I have no intention of hurting you. Please allow me to heal (again). Give me time, I will heal.
**A thousand thanks to my friends and family who have put up with my nonsense. Time and again I promised not to be sad from the bad experience, yet I have failed to keep my promise over and over again. Please give me more time (again) I will get over and get healed and let this scar be the least obvious.
whispered @ Friday, May 12, 2006 by stardusz A poem (or maybe it is too short to be one) that I've thought of and I felt really sweet and reading them I felt loved, but by who? Well, nobody, maybe I am loved by myself when I was thinking of this phrase.
"When love fills the empty space, everything turns soft and gentle, cold breeze is transform into warmth air of summer, every word heard is so sweet and tender."
Pardon my bad English. I will work hard on improving my language.
Trusting One Another, Learning to Re-build the Trust I Once Had
whispered @ Monday, May 08, 2006 by stardusz There are several definition to the word "trust", however I'll only type out the meaning that is related to what I want to express out on this blog.
Definition of trust A firm believe in the reliability, truth, ability or strength of someone or something.
taken from Oxford Dictionary of Current English
I do not know since when did the trust I have for people around me starts to dwindle. This has became pretty obvious to me after a setback in a recent relationship.
I so wanted to gain back the trust I once had in a person, but it was tough. Rebuilding the trust is not as easy as it seems to be. I came to understand one thing; once trust has been shattered, it is almost impossible to build it back again. From what I've been through, I know what I want to be. I want people to trust me and as far as I can, not to let this trust shatter.
Like I've mentioned before, re-building the trust is not easy, but it can be done. I am slowly learning to re-build the trust I've lost. First of all, I think both person need to be frank with each other. This, again, is not easy, but I found myself became more frank to my friend as compared to how I was before.
After being frank with each other, I turn do not know why I became a paranoid. I start to get anxious even though I get assurance of things. I felt that my heart is beating at hundred times per second and could hardly breathe at times. This feeling is very intense and I felt that I might explode any moment.
I knew I needed to talk to someone or else I might get crazy. So, I talk to a friend online this has ease me a little in some way. When I got better, he reminded me that if I still cherish the friendship that is build, I should trust him. This hit me right on the spot I felt more relax and thanked my friend for enlightening me.
I am coping with building trust in this friendship again. It is like building Lego, stacking one piece upon another.
"Que Sera Sera, Whatever will be, will be, The future not ours to see, Que Sera Sera, Whatever will be, will be."
whispered @ Sunday, May 07, 2006 by stardusz Before I start gearing up for my end of semester examination, I want to play hard, work hard.
While browsing through the internet for some internet games, I saw this interesting link to a scary game. I am trying to solve this game and if you are interested to solve it, click on the link below to play.
============================================================================== I have met up with my email pal for the very first time yesterday. He is such a nice guy and me and my girl friend, Pauline, were happy to made such a nice guy from Oregon.
We went to the Night Safari in this little red dot and really enjoy our trip there. It's really a pity that another friend of mine could not join us. I really wish that he would have joined us yesterday, then the fun would have doubled.
I think friendship is important and I am glad that to have made nice friends.
whispered @ Wednesday, May 03, 2006 by stardusz After being nagged for not helping her to cook a meal, I've decided to help my mum cook tonight's dinner. Spending about 30 minutes in the kitchen, I've snapped a picture of the end product of my cooking.
To prepare this meal is pretty easy. The ingredient needed are 1 packet of spaghetti 1 can of creme of mushroom (campbell's) 1 chicken thigh (diced and marinate with soya sauce, pepper) Some sliced chinese cabbage 12x fishballs 1x fishcakes (sliced) 1x glass of fresh milk
To prepare spaghetti: Prepare some water and add some oil and salt. Once the water start boiling. Add in the spaghetti. Switch off the stove once the water starts to boil again (with the lid closed). After 15-20min, pour away the excess water
To prepare the gravy: Pour the campbell soup into the saucepan. Pour a can of water into the saucepan and mix well. Bring the mixture to a boil. Add in the marinated diced chicken (wait for it to boil again). Pour in the glass of milk (boil it again). Put in the fishball, fishcake, sliced chinese cabbage. Simmer the fire and wait for it to boil.
To prepare the dish: Get a plate. Put the spaghetti onto the plate. Pour the gravy over the noodle.
whispered @ Monday, May 01, 2006 by stardusz That is the day where I have to go and vote for a political party that I felt is able to provide us with a better future.
Since 27th Apr 2006, political parties have been actively campaigning for their own party. Delivering speeches on television and having rallies bombarding each other to gain more trust from voters.
The hot topic in this General Election should be James Gomez incident.
James Gomez of the WP has failed to submit his minority form to the Election Department. CCTV in the Election Department shows that Mr Gomez has filled up the miniroty form at the counter, put it into an envelope but instead of submitting the form to the staff, he placed the envelope into his bag. He then proceed to the reception area and the media interviewed him. The minority form is required if a candidate is contesting in a GRC (Group Representation Constituency).
After the Election Department confirm that Mr Gomez did not submit the form, members of the other political parties stepped forward and made many comments about Mr Gomez and the party he is from. Suddenly there is a confusion clouded in me; is it an election of a party or an elimination?
This incident spur some sparks in this coming election. But I felt that the participating parties should not focus so much on this incident, give him a benefit of doubts and move on. Political parties should focus on what they would do for their constituency should they won the election instead..
I am going to vote for the first time, I want to know what they want to do for us and if that is appropriate and is that really a need in my area.
by stardusz It's time to kick off those shoes, grab a bowl of popcorns and watch what this crazy guy from Japan do. It's really funny, no joke about it. Don't understand Japanese? No worries, these come with subtitles
Here is Hard Gay trying to help out a Ramen Shop in Osaka
Me Name: Brenda Gender & Status: F & Single Zodiac: Taurus Likes: Sing Karaoke | Listening to Music & Nice Songs | Casual Drinking | Shopping (with friends) | Create gif/ flash/ html pages | Fav. Sport: Swimming | Inline Skating | (want to learn)Tennis | Dislikes: Backstabbers | Liars | Spicy Food | People with no Goals in Life | My Dream Guy: Humorous | Smart/ Intelligent | Love Me a lot | Care for Me | Faithful | Taller then Me | What I'll Do for Him: Shower Him with All My Love | Care for Him | Give Him a Listening Ear when He Needs One | Faithful to Him | Cheer Him Up When He Is Down Current Fav. Song: Wang Li Hong - Kiss Goodbye | Current Fav. Soundtrack: Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest | Current Fav. Movie: Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest | An Activity that I Longed To Do Again: Cruising down the Expressyway with my Dream Car (Mazda 6 or RX8) |
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